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"Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion. Impossible is not a declaration. It's a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary. Impossible is nothing."
-Muhammad Ali

Monday, January 3, 2011

And so it has begun...

New Years Eve with my GOHS teammates


My first track season here at La Verne is officially under way and I am not entirely sure how to feel about it. As I ran my first run of 2011 with a few of my old Great Oak teammates, we discussed some of our resolutions for the new year. While I haven't quite established a concrete list of my New Years' goals and aspirations, I know that one thing is certain; if I am going to have a successful track season, I have to change my attitude.

I have been incredibly bitter about the upcoming season because I don't know what to expect. I thought that I had cross country season all figured out and then was forced to deal with the harsh reality of disappointment and the inexplicable feelings of failure that resulted. I strive for perfection, almost demand it at times. The possibilities of the unknown terrify me.

As a freshman in high school, I loved track season. I felt like I had something to be proud of and I was happy. I don't know exactly when or why it changed, but I am no longer the fearless freshman I once was. Ever since the year I was forced to take off, I have felt incapable. The possibility of ever running the times I once did seem incomprehensible and far-fetched.

I am sick of the negative nancy that I become as soon as track season rolls around. So as the girls and I were discussing possible New Years' resolutions, the idea of changing my attitude seemed very appropriate. Considering that I am a psychology major, I should realize that I have been setting myself up for failure, engaging in the self-fulfilling prophecy, due to my bitter attitude regarding track season. I am over it. Done. My negative attitude has to come to an end. It will definitely be a challenging resolution, but I have never been one to back down from a challenge. :)

I will keep you all posted.

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